for the time being

1/14/2015

"Is it not late? A late time to be living? Are  not our generations the crucial ones? For we have changed the world. Are not our heightened times the important ones? For we have nuclear bombs. Are we not especially significant because our century is?–our century and its unique Holocaust, its refugee populations, its serial totalitarian exterminations; our century and its antibiotics, silicon chips, men on the moon, and spliced genes? No...we are not and it is not. These times of ours are ordinary times, a slice of life like any other. Who can bare to hear this, or who will consider it? Though perhaps we are the last generation–now there's a comfort. Take the bomb threat away and what are we? Ordinary beads on a never-ending string. Our time is a routine twist of an improbable yarn.

We have no chance of being here when the sun burns out. There must be something heroic about our time, something that lifts it above all those other times. Plague? Funny weather? Dire things are happening. In fact, we are witnessing a mass extinction of animals. According to Oxfords Robert M. May, most of the birds and mammals we know will be gone in four hundred years. But there have  been five other such mass extinctions, scores of millions of years apart. People have made great strides toward obliterating other people, too, but that has been the human effort all along, and our cohort has only broadened the means, as have people in every century. Why are we watching the news, keeping up with the new? Only to enforce our fancy–probably a necessary lie–that these are crucial times, and we are in on them. Newly revealed, and we are in the know: crazy people, bunches of them. New diseases, shifts in power, floods! Can the news from dynastic Egypt have been any different? 

A hundred years ago, Americans saw frenzy consuming their times, and felt the whole show could not go on much longer. These people had seen electricity come and buffalo go. They had settled the country from shore to shore, run telegraph wires across the sea, and built spanning railroads that shortened the overland trail journey from five months to five days. America had surpassed England in the production of steel. Surely theirs were apocolptic days. Rushed time and distance were converging on a vanishing point before their eyes. They could, by their own accounts, scarcely bear their own self consciousness. Now they seem innocent; they sang "A Bicycle Built for Two" and endured their times' moral and natural evils. Since those evils no longer theaten us close to home–neither slavery, civil war, nor bacterial infection–they do not, of course, seem so vividly terrible as our own evils. 

The closer we grow to death, the more closely we follow the news. Year after year, without ever reckoning the hours I wasted last week or last year, I read the morning paper. I buy mass psychotherapy in the form of a lie that is a banner year. Or is it, God save us from crazies, aromatherapy? I smell the rat, but cannot walk away....

The blue light of television flickers on the cave wall. If the fellow crawls out of the cave, what does he see? Not the sun itself, but night, and the two thousand visible stars. Once, I tried to converse with him, the fellow who crawled out of his blue–lit cave to the real world. He had looked into the matter of God. He had to shout to make himself heard: "How do you stand the wind out here?"

I don't. Not for long. I drive a schoolkids' car pool I shouted back, "I don't. I read Consumer Reports every month!" It seemed unlikely that he heard. The wind blew into his face. He turned and faced the lee. I do not know how long he stayed out. A little at a time does for me–a little every day."

An excerpt from, For the Time Being by Annie Dillard.