On my way back from Arkansas where we were visiting my relatives for Christmas, my father, brother and I stopped on the side of the road to look at the stars. It was pitch black, in the middle of nowhere, and perfect for star gazing. We talked about the constellations, and the myths that goes along with them; my brother told us crazy facts, that may or may not actually be true, and my dad and I took a few long exposure pictures of the stars.
We were content.
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When I look back on 2014 I see a year that has tested my strength. My mother, and grandmother were both diagnosed with cancer. And though I lost a grandmother, I gained strength. Throughout the year I laughed and I cried; I loved and I hated, but most of all, I learned. We're constantly changing, becoming different people and learning from our experiences, and though I went through a lot this past year, I learned a lot too. I learned how to cope with loss, and my anger when, there is no one to be angry with, and I learned how to accept that certain things are out of my control. Overall, it was not the best year, I won't sugar coat it, but it was a necessary one, in order for me to grow into the wonderful young lady that I plan on becoming.
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As the reality of the new year steamrolls over me, I'm faced with the realization that I'm going to be leaving for college in 18 months, and it is somewhat terrifying. I need to take the ACT, perfect my essay writing skills, figure out where I actually want to go (that I have a chance of getting into), and a million other little things. Yet, with all the chaos and adventure that is sure to come, for the upcoming year, I want to put my worry aside and enjoy my last years as a kid.
For 2015 I have two New Years resolutions.
1. be true to myself
2. appreciate those that I love, and the moments spent with them
Whats your New Years resolution?
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